This morning, while Wendy was taking a bath for school:
Wendy: Alam mo Mama, kahapon, excited ako pumasok sa school kasi gusto ko makita kuya ni Francine*. [FYI: the kuya is her crush]
KG: Talaga?
Wendy: Opo. Ganun ka din ba?
KG: Oh yes! Ok yan para excited ka pumasok.
[Insert nostalgic music here.]
Haha!
This brought me back to my grade school and high school days, when, at many instances, I was excited to go to school because of my crushes [oo, minsan more than one ang crush ko]. I must admit that crushes were a big, big part of my school life.
In my first year of high school, I didn’t want the school year to end and I didn’t want to go to vacation because I wouldn’t be seeing my crush, which, at that time, eh feeling ko patay na patay ako!
The first crush I remember was when I was in Grade 1. His name was Raymond. He was so cute! Through my younger school life, my crushes were always based on looks. Minsan, ang mga crush ko, hindi ko kilala personally. These ones were mostly from the older batches! When I got older, looks plus character na ang criteria ko. So this means that some of my friends became my crushes.
I remember my friend and I making tambay in our canteen, which is elevated, to search our crushes sa covered court below. Makita lang namin sila, ang saya saya na namin. Oh, and we even had “nicknames” for our crushes so that when we talked about them, only we would know who they were, like toothpick (payat kasi), kilay (makapal kasi ang kilay), drumstick (drummer kasi)…oh, you get the point.
And more than puberty, it was because of my crushes that I learned to use a mirror, dress myself up, make porma, and act properly [whatever that meant for me at that time]. Siempre, we need to impress our crushes diba? Kailangan mapansin nila tayo! Remember the kilig moments? Haay…ang dami diba? Kausapin ka lang, or magkadikit lang kayo, or tingnan ka lang, kilig na kilig na! There are also times na medyo assuming ako. Tingnan lang ako ng crush ko, feeling ko crush na din nya ako. He he!
If there were the kilig moments, there were also the heartbreaking moments. I remember that devastating time when I saw my crush suddenly holding hands with someone else [and I thought crush nya ako!], or when I suddenly learned that my crush has a crush on someone…at hindi ako yun! What would one do but go home and cry your heart out, telling your mom that you won’t have a crush ever again! But the next week, may iba ka nang crush! Ganun lang naman yun diba?
Of course, as I grew older, the crushes turned to puppy love, then to first love, then to true love, and kung anu-anu pang love meron. But sometimes, it’s nice to have crushes, just to have those fleeting kilig moments.
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*Name changed to protect me. Secret namin yan ni Wendy eh! Baka sabihin nya pinagkakalat ko secrets namin! Haha!